nuthin' much

:) i haven't written in forever... i just don't really have a lot of interesting information to report, i guess...plus, when i do, i'm just too daggone tired to even sit and write... i'm in that daggone tired condition as i type this, but i'll overcome it for a little while to write a bunch of nothingness... :)
work...kicking my butt... the energy it requires to teach 22 very energetic children is lacking in this momma of an almost 4 month old... i grade a lot, it keeps piling up...it's like you never see the end of the pile... i used to put it off and have grading marathons...but i can't do that now...little one requires too much attention... :) is it june yet??????????
little one...melts my heart every single minute i get to spend with her... the mornings of goodbyes are still not something i even smile about... i hate leaving her for the 7 hours that i do... like i said, is it june yet?? she's doing well with the absolutely rediculous schedule for a baby...up before the sun, eating, getting dressed...and then packed up to head to our angel, mrs. s., who loves her like her own... we got an adorable valentine's day surprise...she was all dressed up in this incredibly cute outfit...little jeans, a "mommy's love bug" shirt, a priceless heart sweater and matching hat...and cute little socks... incredible. i have some cute pictures, but i just haven't posted them yet... mrs. s is just so good to us... :)

but, baby girl is growing and changing daily, it seems... she turns 4 months old on monday...which is hard for me to believe... wasn't i just meeting her for the first time?? she's playing with her hands, doing ab exercises with her legs in the air... we're about to start our first 'food' of cereal...she's giggling and laughing all the time... we love splashing our feet in the bath and kicking whatever is in the way...our very own karate kid... :) she's playing and grasping her toys...and continues to fight sleep like a real champ... but, she's the best ever...and i would do nothing else but be with her if i could... :)

i'm eager for spring to come... while i dream of the unexpected gift of snuggling back to sleep on snow days, we seem to have been cheated... but spring...flowers, fresh air, walks with the babe...birds chirping... it just seems like it's been awhile since spring... :)

the "zzzzzzz's" are fast approaching, so i really need to wrap this up... :) i know, you're thinking, "this wasn't anything worth reading..." :) see...i tried to warn you with my title... :)

have a fabulous weekend...and enjoy every minute doing whatever makes you happy! :)

extreme crying

seriously, i think my baby could win this event if we'd put it in the Olympics...

i know i'm probably trying to impose "adult" ideas onto this 90ish day old little person... but, honestly, how hard is it for a little baby to sleep well? i had always thought that babies were supposed to sleep...and sleep a lot. well, my little munchin...she's a sleep FIGHTER, and she's quite a good little fighter...

while, on most mornings, we wake up with a big toothless grin (i LOVE this :)), it's the lack of sleep during the day that's turning my pride and joy into this screaming, sleep-deprived zombie from around 3 PM until she just finally gives up and sleeps... how long does this occur in a given day? a few hours, usually... she's so exhausted...her eyes, red and puffy...sheesh!
but before she gives in...her blood curdling cries and beet-red face...wow! i hafta yell, "BREATHE" over her cries...seriously...she doing the "i'm.not.going.to.breathe.for.a.few.minutes.just.to.make.you.really.understand.my.anger.and.sadness" cry...i'm talkin' about a baby who screams even louder when we're trying to make our way home in the afternoon when we have to stop at lights and stop signs.
i've explained...err, YELLED over the crying, "I HAVE TO STOP AT STOP SIGNS AND STOPLIGHTS...IT'S THE LAW...." (me, reasoning with a screaming child?!)

"uhhh, yes, officer...please forgive me for not being a law abiding citizen, but my daughter...she doesn't sleep and gets REALLY really upset when i'm stopped...so...."

and when she does decide to sleep, it's usually all evening, which means she misses feedings or really pushes our feeding schedule out of whack... speaking of...feeding schedule...yah, what's that...? :) and, who says that she has to eat a decent amount when she decides she wants to eat?

so, me, being a working mother, who is trying her hardest to keep this babe on a schedule....i'm failing miserably...or she's resisting... my poor baby... i wish, so badly, that we were like other countries (europe, canada) in that they give their mothers serious maternity leave...

but, i regress... so yah, my daughter will be recieving the gold at the Olympics for extreme crying... :)

i pray this isn't any foreshadowing for the teenage years... :) if it is, please come and visit me...in jail. ;)

i love my daughter so much...and i hope, soon, we can help her find the joys of some good shut eye throughout the day... :)

until then, here are some cute pictures... :)